Hopefully I’ll be able to express myself the way it’s intended. I wanted to say that I sincerely appreciate the support you’ve all given me over the past few years. My attitude towards this has changed a lot in the last year. I think this blog or my Social Media sites gave me more confidence and gave me a sense of purpose, I guess. It was something that I could point to and say, “see, I’m worth something.” But I am getting weary of people knowing my business. This is partially my fault because I put it all out there, but it seemed to help organise my thoughts and helped get me through some rough times, but it seems to have outlived its usefulness. I feel more and more the need to keep to myself.
The other thing about this blog is that I wonder sometimes if I am being as authentic as I want to be. I feel like I’m a completely different person in my head and on this blog than who I am in the real world. I’ve always felt that I was being myself and never pretending to be somebody else, but I always smile even when I don’t feel like smiling. I wonder sometimes if I’m always pretending.
Anyway, I started this blog in March of last year, which means I only have three or four months worth of photos to edit, and then I’m done, I haven’t been out much lately. I have 3 rolls of 120mm to develop, but that’s it. I just got my (rather large) Industrial Electronics book to start on and school is keeping me pretty busy. I don’t see where my blog fits in at the moment, right now it just feels like another thing that I need to do that I’m not doing. Maybe I’ll feel differently later on down the road.
So again, I want to thank you all for your kind words and support. I’ll be posting a few more times but that will be it for a while.
Here are some random 35mm photos: